Where's RESPECT gone?

I'm really beginning to hate living in this city. I gave up walking because of all the insults about my weight from passers by in cars.  Now everywhere I walk into schools or shops I get unusual looks or smart comments made from people or back stab behind my back.  I don't understand why they do it because there are more highly obese people out there then me.  These obese people I have seen are twice the size of me but why am I the one targeted of being bullied by strangers?  

It's no wonder why I don't trust anyone new no more?  I don't know if I can trust them to be my new friend or not.  A good thing about the internet:  It's more comfortable chatting to someone they don't intend to meet in person.  It takes me about a year before I send a photo of myself to someone I become email buddies with.

 

It doesn't help with the stress level from home causes me to gain more weight. Tonight my 13 yo tells me if I return to work I will need to lose weight. What is wrong with people today?  Where did the respect of others go? Why can't children be seen but not heard anymore? 

Now it makes me wonder if I can get employment because of the way I presented myself.  To any employer they might be narrow minded to say I am not fit to work.  It's bad enough to find employment with limited experience at the age I am now at and going through.  Why can't people just don't judge a book by its cover?

 

I am starting to have second thoughts about studying next year as well.  I don't wish to waste my money on something I won't be able to achieve successfully after all the hard work of studying.